It’s not the weather. Even though it is stormy out. It’s my mood.
It’s one of those nights where my mind races a million miles ahead of me. Focusing on all the things I haven’t done. The words I’d like to say to people even if I never would utter anything close in reality. Things I should have said sooner, or not at all.
I try to stop the train, but once it has left the station everything becomes so overwhelming. It pulls me along, despite my best intentions, to that place at the end of the line where a million more negative thoughts are just waiting on the platform to get on for the return journey.
I try really hard to deal with this responsibly. To apply logic, give myself less or more credit, depending on the circumstances. I try to be rational, but there is nothing rational about this mode of being.
I end up exhausted, trying to talk myself round to a more positive way of thinking. Trying to coax myself to let go. But it is easier said than done.
When I boil it all down, it’s just that I’m afraid. Afraid of not being accepted, of failing. Afraid of being stuck in a moment like this forever.
But hindsight tells me I won’t get stuck here forever. And if 365 days pass, I might not even remember what it was that kept me up all night so afraid.
And that is why I wrote this. To remind not only myself, but anyone else having a dark night, that at the end of every night there comes a sunrise. We just have to hold on, and wait until we see it pierce the gloom.
It gets better—the guy is deaf, and he taught his cat the sign for “food.” So the cat’s not just saying “put that in my mouth,” it’s actually signing
Best thing I have ever seen I love cats so much omg
Your cute cat of the day
Not only that, but if you notice at the beginning, the cat *gets the man’s attention* as any person who wanted to talk to a deaf/hoh individual would (well, and vice versa IME). I’ve done sign since I was 5, and generally, w/o eye contact initially, you wave a hand or lightly touch the arm (if that’s ok with the person you’re trying to converse with, of course).
Generally, adult cats meow mostly to humans, but this cat has figured out that’s not going to work and has adapted. Animal companions! They are INCREDIBLE.
What a smart, sweet kitty!
this is the cutest thing ever omg
cats are awesome
(Source: needsmoarcat, via littleanimalgifs)
Tonight I caught my own dinner.
My best and oldest friend has terminal cancer. You might have met her. She’s the one with a Hold Steady tattoo who drank all your gin. The one who burst your right eardrum when she said hello, and the left one during a Katy Perry rendition. She’s the one wearing lipgloss and flowers, shouting the…
This is what money is for.
Commissions are open!
e-mail me at email@example.com if you’d like something done.
I’m a very visual person so it was just easier to list the prices with a reference image instead of giving a description. That said if there’s a style I use or an idea you have that isn’t shownjust let me know and I’ll get you a price. Prices are more or less per character, but please contact me if you’d like multiple characters or groups done and I’ll work something out with you!
So, here’s how it goes down if you’d like something done:
- Have money ready. I love to draw but I’m also not a charity, and “exposure” doesn’t pay my rent. Know what you want and have the funds ready for it - it’s so simple! All prices are in USD and I currently use PayPal and am not particularly interested in any alternatives right now, so it’s that or bust.
- Contact me. Your best bet is to e-mail me your request at firstname.lastname@example.org. You can also message me on Tumblr using that little envelope icon in the upper right (at least, I hope it’s there), or send me a message on DeviantART if you’re into that sort of thing.
- Have a description or references ready. Pretty self-explanatory, but hey, here we are. I can work off of either a description or reference images - but if you’re using a description, try to be as accurate as possible. If you want a specific pose or clothing or action or something of the like please let me know right off. If you change it partway through I still reserve the right to cancel the commission and refund you.
- Once everything’s ready, I’ll get you a sketch (unless it’s one of the badges at the top, those are really quick and generally don’t need a sketch). Once you’ve confirmed the sketch is good I’ll begin on the image proper.
You know the rest, be kind, patient, show some common human decency, etc. I don’t really have a list of do’s and don’t because they’re big and scary, but it’s safe to say that I won’t be drawing anything blatantly pornographic (I’m fine with nudity) nor will I be doing anything involving extreme violence.
Even if this isn’t your thing, taking a few seconds for signal boosting is always appreciated. Thanks for your support!
(Legalese: Prices, commission types, styles, and laws of time and space are subject to change at any time. I reserve the right to reject any commission request. Once a commission is started there are no refunds except in cases where I have canceled them, in which case I will refund you your money. I do like to try to work out a solution but if nothing else works, I’d rather part ways and be done with it.)
08/27/13 Commissions post created. Mood: Slightly terrified.
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